One morning my littlest brought me the book Thoughts to Make Your Heart Sing, and as the four of us read a few pages on how we have been freed from sin, and how Jesus bought us out of slavery, I had to pause for the tears streaming down my face. I welcomed the flood of emotion toward God’s goodness and His nearness. I probably needed that moment even more than my boys did.
Isn’t it true that most days we forget how much we need one another? Even just a toddler to bring us a book. We get so wrapped up in what we are doing or wanting to accomplish that we start to think that everything and sometimes everyone else is just getting in the way. And yet, relationships with others are really the most important things of all.
In his book We Really Do Need Each Other, Reuben Welch wrote:
“When you are burdened and weary and sad you need Jesus but you also need someone to be Jesus to you – someone to bring his healing presence to you. And sometimes the answer to your weariness and heavy-heartedness is not “tell it to Jesus alone” but to begin to share and care with someone else.”
I’m finding how true that statement is as I reflect on life. Things like when family and friends offered babysitting or brought meals over, or even just a listening ear when we had our first miscarriage. I didn’t realize how much I needed that expression of love. And I think of a neighbor recently expressing to us her sadness and fears over an upcoming surgery she needs. Sharing tears and prayers.
And while I write these thoughts of how much we need relationships, there is a sore spot in my heart for one that is broken and undone. A relationship that is not yet restored. And while it has been very good, and I think necessary, to have separation from this friend, the sadness still hits me at times. Especially if I’m listening to any songs that have to do with restoration (usually Josh Garrels) because true restoration is such a beautiful thing. Such a healing thing. Something my heart desires. And while sometimes my emotions make me want to just throw out the past and say “Just try again! Seek restoration!”, at the same time I hesitate due to my wounded heart and failed attempts in the past. I know that restoration must be sought from both sides. And when unhealthy patterns and attitudes keep emerging, I really don’t know how true restoration can happen. I’m learning, through friends and family, that forgiveness doesn’t always mean that a friendship will continue. True restoration may not happen until Heaven, and I need to be ok with that. I need to find hope in that truth. And pray against the bitterness that wants to take root in my heart.
I want to hold on to the hope that someday things will be made right
That someday bitterness will be banished from my heart
I want to see the beauty of the souls right in front of me
And not forget my need for the healing touch
Of their love for me
And their need for me
Because I need them too
Since you all probably know how much I love and find encouragement from the music of Josh Garrels, here’s another song for you called At the Table (below). His new album Home is now available…To purchase or for free on noisetrade.
The chorus really hits my heart:
Come on home….
Home to me
And I will hold you in my arms
And joyful be
There will always…
A place for you
At my table
Return to me
Thanks for listening. How have you experienced our need for each other? What are your thoughts on restoration and forgiveness?
(The video starts with an intro to the song, but if you want to skip to the song itself, I believe it starts around 1:45)